Where I Send my Thoughts to Far-Off Destinations

this is my contact to the outside world

2007-02-04T01:38:23Z

i had a whole entry filled out...and now it disappeared...

since i don't feel like typing it all again, i'll give you the sparknotes version
-i've been sick for the longest time in my life, beating my old record of 3 days in first grade Now currently at 3 1/2 days
-i now have a computer in my room with the internet (yay)
-i need to know if there's any homework i can do, or start
-miss you all a bunch. really - seeing only you family for the last 3 days gets to be quite discouraging

no_effing_clue @ 2007-01-10T15:52:00

2007-01-10T21:11:30Z

hi yall. it been a long time, and there's a lot to talk about, but i really don't want to wirte that much currently...so i'll keep it short.

WOW happy 2007 (i'm only 9 days late if you think about it.). this year's going to be scary/wonderful.exciting/ and over all freaking sweet.
last year was too.

what have i been up to?
practicing (who in band who cares about auditions isn't?) i did really well btw- and i'm confident i got into wind ensamble this year. took long enough (scowls at my own laziness/overconfidence for the last two years)
playing pokemon more than what is considered healthy
went to florida to see the clarks (they all say hi if you knew them), my aunt, uncle, and cousins (plus new baby charlie, the only one who was really cute), and my step-grandparents...
"he's just a boy, and i'm just a girl. can i make it anymore obvious"
and i can't get the above song out of my head...almost three weeks...can someone just shoot me...please?
...and thats about it...

so, i'm taking the SATs in a couple weeks...no prep...no classes...just cold
i'm really just trying to get a handle on it so when i really take it in june, i'll be more confident
call me crazy/stupid for "possibly getting bad scores and ruining your chances for getting into a great college" but i really don't think i'll do that poorly
and if my scores go up in june, then i improved
so i think its a win-win
XP

and i think that's it
yeah...that's it
buh bye!!

no_effing_clue @ 2005-10-04T16:38:00

2005-10-04T20:49:42Z

hello people. any and all jews...i love you as of now.
i have been wanting such a day off for so long.
ps - happy new year.
so i last updated...thursday...so...
fri - nothing to exciting, but we did have a football game. we won. again....
saturday - nother competion. we got a 78.85. major jump. i'm happy. (ps. we won our division and got best music and best percussion)
sunday - last met game of the season. they lost, but i got a hat.
monday - boring as all hell, til i got to leslie's, so there were many sexual inuendos to keep me entertained.
today - more at leslie's, including rocky horror and caberet. and burning/melting things.
i am nice and clean and comfy.

umm...still nothing to talk about

2005-08-30T14:57:36Z

i'm getting bored of summer, but don't want to go back to school.

i'm tired.

going shopping for clothes today. i don't really want to.

well i guess that you probably know by now

i was one who wanted to fly

i wanted to ride on that arrow of fire right up to heaven

and i wanted to go for every man

every child, every mother of children

i wanted to carry the dreams of all people right up to the stars

and i prayed that i'd find a answr there

or maybe i would find a song

giving voice to all the hearts that cannot be heard

and for all of the ones who live in fear

and all of those who stand apart

my being there would bring us a little step closer together.

--------John Denver

for every action there is an opposite and equal reaction.

BAND GEEK ALERT

2005-08-19T14:49:57Z

band is life.

i'm horribly upset though, that i had to get switched from 1st to 2nd part because the parts were unbalanced. but i got bonus points for being flexible, and i'm not a6 this year...i'm a5, which means i have a different number than last year...

the drill looks a alot better to me than last year's. so i'm happy.

and band camp is next week (*happy dance*) i'm so esited!

today i'm going shopping w/ rach and laura, my lovers. we'll have a lovey time i'm sure.

i wish i had something more interesting to say, but i don't. so suffer.

no_effing_clue @ 2005-08-16T12:21:00

2005-08-16T16:37:47Z

hey...going through that big mosaic thing to celebrate 8 million...i saw
leslie's eye
and what looked like a latern entry thing
and a picture of ben.

btw- they repeated a lot of pictures, so it wasn't fair

yeah - diner last night was a blast. it was a shame no one had a camera though D=

my total brain breakthrough of the day consited of 'what's that on my head...oh..it's my hair'

yes summer is winding down to the end, although the best part of it for me starts next week (yay bandcamp). i'm glad summer is almost over though, because at this point i'm amusing myself by falling off of chairs it seems.

love you all, but my saxophone is beckoning (sp?).

Friends Only from now on, folks.

2005-06-08T21:41:49Z

Made by my love, Rachael, specifically for me. =]

no_effing_clue @ 2005-04-26T20:22:00

2005-04-27T00:29:24Z

these are the converse i'm getting!!!!!!!

i love my mommy x395869234658724356984655555555

i've been wanting these exact shoes since DECEMBER.

hahah i'm happy

no_effing_clue @ 2005-04-21T19:05:00

2005-04-21T23:08:02Z

hey!!

this whole thing is wierd....kinda...argued...kinda...expressed worries/feelings....he said i worry too much....its all complicatd

"love is never black and white" - this is the truth...unfortunately

"the person you miss most is the one you're sitting next too and can't have" - this is also true

damn it all!!!!!!!!!

no_effing_clue @ 2005-04-09T18:54:00

2005-04-09T22:59:31Z

haha..
i figured i'd post cause i have nothing better to do.
yes i'm studying for cratamin
yes i miss you
no, i haven't died yet.
and my grandma's here from tennesse so i won't be the only girl in the house for a week. and we get along really wel so i won't hate it here.
still wishing that i was there with you guys

note: i wont be posting/commenting much 'cause this computer's a piece of shit and slow and yeah...please don't think i'm ignoring you.

my destiny...yeah right...

2005-03-28T15:07:02Z

The flowering of compassion, through your ability to merge on a feeling level and to empathize with all, is a key theme for you in this lifetime. This propensity to share others' emotional experience has both its blessings and its deficits. At your finest, Christina, you have a deeply-felt understanding of human nature which goes beyond words or intellect, and which enables you to forgive others' misdeeds and make allowances for their weaknesses. You are acutely aware of others' pain, including the emotional wounds and brokenness they carry within, and your ability to listen with an understanding heart and to unconditionally accept people as they are can be a healing influence in their lives. You are inclined to exclude nobody. At a deep level you feel and know your oneness with all creatures, and thus every snail in the garden or stray cat is part of your "heart's family".

However, this same all-embracing emotional/psychic openness and receptivity can be the source of some of your greatest challenges in life. It is easy for you to become overwhelmed by the world and its sorrows, and to seek some form of escape from it and from your own extreme sensitivity; for instance, over using drugs or alcohol or even food to alter your mood, or retreating from life into the unreal world of television or other diversions. You may simply withdrawing into your own private fantasies to avoid confronting the challenges in the physical world. At its worst this tendency can devolve into evasiveness and playing ostrich "about important issues in your life". While your imagination and your sensitivity are the well spring of some of your richest experiences and gifts, if over indulged you may become passive, ineffectual, lost or confused. Especially when young, Christina, you may lack a strong sense of self, of definition and identity, because on a feeling level you identify with others so easily. It can be difficult for you to separate yourself, to know what your boundaries are, when to say no or how to stand up for your own personal interests. Since you are not narrowly focused on self, others may take advantage of your natural generosity and sympathy. Learning and incorporating the concepts of discrimination and clear judgment will enable you to give of yourself in ways that are healthy for you and the ones you are giving to.

does this make sense to any of you?? and do you think it at all implies to meh??

i am lost and confused about this thing...

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-28T09:38:00

2005-03-28T14:57:58Z

after reading about everyone's action with lamb chop, i had to get out my old puppets and well used my camera....

first of course, i had to get into the action

lamb chop and charlie horse and hush puppy.

i always knew that lamb chop had a thing for hush puppy...

these aren't lambcop porn...unfortunately...

EYES

Meg w/ a carrot (cratamen)

this picture's just cool.

taken through a frozen window when it was raining and everyone in the bus (except leslie) had to pee.

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-27T19:21:00

2005-03-28T00:32:38Z

while all of you were out having a WONDERFUL easter, i was stuck in the car with my dad and my brother again for five hours.
sorry, i didn't mean for any one to feel bad about their awesome day, but i am TOTALLY jealous.
i really hate going down there. this weekend especially cause we HAVE to see a movie EVERY weekend and no one besides me wanted to go see the ring 2 and laugh our asses off at its badness (so i've heard), we went to see robots cause "nothing else was being shown" =[
and of course since we do have off tommorrow, dad expected us to stay, even though he had us for an extra day already (friday). of course i did NOT want to, so i told him i had a lot of projects to do, so he was pissed off at me for the entire weekend. in fact, i think the best thing that happened all weekend was that i won five bucks for our "family" poker night. woot five bucks.
tommorrow i'm going to be glued to the computer doing a stoopid history project, so if you all want to talk.....

i want marching band to be back on cause then i have excuses to stay up here. i would tell my dad to just take my brother, but then he goes on these ridiculous guilt trips that, being a girl and his daughteri can't say no. family relations should be voluntary.

what would do to be able to stay up here....

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-22T16:14:00

2005-03-22T21:21:52Z

sore throghts suck

so do dermatologists

and noriel should stop stalking me {>_<}

and there was nothing interesting that happened today....

i missed laura......when we were at the band thingimabobber

about that...mike sarin didn'tt come but he was here today...i had photo w/ him the period before... maybe he'll get into a lot of trouble for not showing X]

*yawn*

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-21T21:20:00

2005-03-22T02:20:57Z

heh, supposed to be doing history report, but i made a new icon instead!!
feedback?

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-21T15:45:00

2005-03-21T21:03:22Z

it's my friend!!!!

yes, that was the highlight of my DAY.

chem, boring as ever, possibly more boring cause laura and i didn't have much to talk about, and i was taking some note for history that i should have done a while ago....

photo - pretty good. i got an A+/A on my photogram =D, but have no one in that class to really talk to....jeny and claire and becky are SO far away that all i get to do while we are sittin is give blerime the answers to her math homework....ughh...

english - stupid test. i as far as i are concerned, subjects and verbs shall never agrees. it do not make a difference to i. (sorry laura, it are just out of spite....)

history - mandon should die in a hole with flames. first she starts the period with "your test is moved to tommorrow" and then noriel pipes up with "what about the people on the band trip tommorrow" then she changes her mind cause "too many kids will be out tommorrow, put everything away, it's time for your test" latin america should not be in our text book and i hate history. i failed that test with a capitol F.

band - mike sarin is possibly the most annoying kid on the planet for those forty minutes of the day (jon, noah, and ploshnick give him a run for his money though...) either play the dynamics or don't play at all. please don't wail the parts you know and then don't play when our part needs to be wailed. i hate him and so does becky and kelly. he should so drop band for next year (please)

lessons - vogel"get your coats its cold" later, me and kelly "what the heck its like 40 degrees out here; it's not cold, it's confortable"

math - durrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

gym. - zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

latin - partridge (fri) tells me that my outline would be fine with the plays on them and whatever else i was doing. today "it's a little short" cause, unlike most people, i stayed within the 2 page limit. stick it, and i didn't find you funny today at all.

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-20T14:49:00

2005-03-20T19:54:21Z

you know what i hate?
i hate it when people ask for your help, and then make fun of you when you try to explain something and why it is important and why they have to do it.
i hate it especially when they ask for your help, and then don't listen to you.

sorry if you don't appreciate when i'm trying to teach you math so you can be smarter then your teacher

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-20T12:54:00

2005-03-20T17:59:10Z

nose and tummy don't like me today...niether does me hair....
latin should get flushed down a toliet filled with ...use your imagination
i <3 rachael.

Napoleon Bonaparte's pony

2005-03-19T21:12:50Z

Phaedria (phd) - come out you scoundrel! what won't you go, gallows bird? forth with you, you bad bargin!

dorus (a eunuch) (d) - o, please don't

pythias (py) - Pray, have you got the man?

phd - of cours i got him

py - that's fine

dorias (da) - a good job indeed

py - where is he?

phd - where is he? why, can't you see him?

py- See! see whom?

phd- this fellow of course!

py- who's this?

phd- the man who was brought to you today

py- phd, none of us have ever set eyes on this man

phd- no?

py- why did you believe that he had been brought over to me?

phd- yes for i had no one else

py- oh, he's not to be compared to the other one; the other was handsome and gentlemenlike

phd- he looked so before, because he was wearing gray clothing, now he looks ugly because he hasn't got it on

py- please be quiet; as if that were all the differencebetween them!
a young man was broughtto us today, phd, who was a pleasure to look apon; this witheed worn out flabby old man with a complexion of a weasel

phd- what tale is this? you bring me such a pass that i myself don't know what i have done. say, you fello, didn't i buy you?

d- yes you did

py- now bid him answer me.

phd- put your question

py- did you come by our house today?

d- no

py- he says no. but that other one came; he was about sixteen years ooold. Parmeno brought him

this goes on for a while. dorus goes awa...
this is supposed to be a roman comedy about a guy having to hire a eunuch to protect a girl while he's awa, and this guy falls in love w/ the girl and he pretends to be the eunuch..... not very funny so far...

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-18T15:02:00

2005-03-18T20:09:07Z

i'm just a little bored.

a little bored i am.

here's a bunch of old pics you guys get to see.

let there be light.

and there was.

whore on a couch with a badger

lockers...but u knew that...

behold all that are music stands

e's happy

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-17T17:53:00

2005-03-17T23:03:29Z

wow. max's math teacher is insane.
apparently, he's being taught that x^2 + x^2 = x^4, and that only works if x = 0. if x is 2, the equation would read 4 + 4 = 16. GGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! (yes, this is the math nerd side of me.)

and now my mom wants me to "keep an eye out" for a date for max for his senior prom
mom- "maybe one of your friends would like to go"
me- "he's my brother. they all think he's wierd. he can get his own date or not have one at all. he is my OLDER brother. and now i have to set him up with a date. this is against my principles."
mom- "he is mentally younger than you so you should stop thinking of him as your older brother."
me- "mom, i cant..."
mom- "yes you can, just keep an ear out for someone who wants to go to the senior prom for next year"
at this i of course roll my eyes then she starts the "strict talking" (yes, my mom ISN'T the coolest mom ever) i would like your people's opinion on this. PLEAZ!

mumble mumble

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-16T16:27:00

2005-03-16T21:32:57Z

i hope this works......

mwuhaha!!

i win!!!

mr partridge you horny a hole

sorry can't make you look better laura, this is the ONLY pic i have of you....

i love rachel 'cause she told me how to do this (w/ help from a hannigin)

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-16T15:43:00

2005-03-16T20:43:39Z

mwuhaha
behold my mighty icon!!

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-16T15:01:00

2005-03-16T20:16:57Z

odessy being shoved down throat.

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only first sax in concert band today woot!
and i was exactly on time!!!! woot woot!
beware, for i am a massive band geek.

ok, someone has to teach me how to use the photo bucket thing. i am inept.

partridge didn't dance for our class, though i have seen him (lap) dancing enough, so i think that makes up for it....

ok, we all have to go to palm beach and stay at the four star sheraton or where ever mancinelli stayed cause ohmyfuckinggod that sounds wonderful. we get to be waited on hand and foot!!! (does this mean though, that if you are horny, there will be someone there to ease the exictment? just a thought...)

laura did not cheat on the excell thing for science today by having me put her name on mine. no she did not!!!

i feel sorry for ms auerbach cause her father's sick. for her sake i hope he gets better. yesterday she was nervous wreck...

gum is good.

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i want to have a bonfire. pyromaniac i am.

buhbye.

no_effing_clue @ 2005-03-16T14:47:00

2005-03-16T19:53:42Z

ok....

these are all the pictures that you get to see (minus brad's cause its already posted) and they won't come up. HELP!!!!!